in life things happen and you believe them to be to so unexpected some might think they aren't actually happening... but then a few days later, or a week, or a month later, it will hit. that event did happen, I didn't want it to, I didn't believe that it did, but people say to themselves "now I finally realize that something did happen, I had no control, I didn't want this, but it happened anyways".

is there ways of fixing things like this? yes, there are. is it hard? most of the time...yes, it is.

I want my life on the right track, I want my life back but I want it to be slightly different...I still want that person in my life though. I still love that person. I still need that person to help experience life and the world together...don't leave forever, don't leave now...

"We live on front porches and swing life away, We get by just fine here on minimum wage. If love is a labor I'll slave till the end, I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand".
-Rise Against: Swing Life Away-

i'm sorry...for it all. fuck, let's fix it.